For the last 18 months I have experienced a real darkening of the mind and spirit. A hopelessness that I cannot explain. It has left me with questions like, “Why am I here?” “What is my purpose?” What is all this for?”
These are questions that everyone struggles with from time to time I am sure. But I have been unable to shake these thoughts. The conversation seems to always be “God what is all this for?”
As I walked this morning I decided to change my approach. Instead of identifying all the terrible things in life and in the world I decided to just thank God.
To thank God for Life. To thank God for family. To thank God for the earth to inhabit. To thank God for air to breath. In short, just to be thankful.
The Lord spoke in that moment. He showed me that if he had not created the earth, or humanity, or animals, or plants, or the moon, or the stars, or the universe He would be no less complete. He does not need his creation to make Himself whole.
As I thanked God and He spoke to me I realized He is the instigator in the relationship. He started all this and therefore He is the focus of life, and thanks, and praise, and honor. I did nothing and I can do nothing to make Him more. I can do nothing to make myself more appealing in His eyes.
He is complete in and of Himself and in order for me to be complete I must find that completeness and wholeness in Him!